I'm serious this time!!! I'm finally serious!!!

OK so here is the deal! I joined Weight Watchers online! I REALLY REALLY need to loose weight! I'm not joking! I swear I'm bigger than I was after I had Mason. You know how usually you loose a little bit or all of the baby weight.......well, honestly I don't think I ever have! I went to the doctor the other day and I was a little bit shocked at my weight! I'm going to be totally honest here and really loose weight! I'm letting you all know my problem and then I'll feel more accountable since you all know I'm doing this. I don't have time to go to the meeting so I joined on line and will keep track of it all on the Weight Watchers website and I'll keep you all posted here on my blog so I have someone to answer too. OK are you ready??? I weigh 245 pounds! I can't believe I've let myself get to this point. I watch the Biggest Looser and feel so bad for how big those people are and I'm one of them! I honestly don't feel as huge as I am. It's a rude awakening though when I put on clothes I haven't worn for awhile or catch a glimpse of me in the mirror as I go to get in the shower. Yikes!!! Recently my dad has lost over 50 pounds in a fairly short amount of time. He has just been watching his portions and food intake as well as drinking water and walking as much as he can to and from church and stuff. I think since I've been in Nail tech school I've gained weight. I am in school from 3pm-8pm. So I miss dinner and end up snacking from the candy machine at school or eating fast food late on my way home from school. Me and my friends would go out to eat once a week after school too! I have always been a big believer in that you shouldn't eat after 6:00pm. Ever since eating later I have also had really bad heart burn problems! Yuck! So anyway, I'm serious! I am going to change my life today and forever! I need to learn better eating habits and change them forever! I feel like Weight Watchers is a good one to be able to do forever! It's not a get skinny fast time plan and that is the healthiest way to loose weight. Slow and steady wins the race! Right? So from today on, I'm going to eat healthy and be accountable. Wish me luck and be looking forward to my progress. I'm so embarrassed that I have let my self get this way. I think most of my weight gain is due to stress. I stress over EVERYTHING! I'm a very high strung person! I need to just calm down and not worry so much. I also need to stop drinking Diet Pepsi. Even though it's diet, it's still not good for me! I'm going to have some caffeine head aches but I'll take some Excedrin until that is done with. I get 30 points a day and so far I've used 6 for the two packets of instant oatmeal I had for breakfast. It's 11:40am and I feel good. I'm not hungry yet. I think I was eating food that just didn't keep me full and I hate the hungry feeling. OK I'll end this but I will be posting more often about my progress. I did this last year about this time and was loosing weight until I gave up! This time it's for real! I promise!!! I figure I better do all I can. Since I am the only one that can change me! I've wanted to get the gastric bypass for a few years now. Since our insurance dosen't cover it yet.....I better that my life into my own hands!